Ixlusions

Waiting for the whole day to pass by,
just so that my tears can say what my face denies.
Hiding my emotions seemed like a better idea
until I became numb.
They said they will be there
and I showed them the reason behind my tears.
What do you mean now they are nowhere near?

My stubborn faith seems like a joke to me,
it makes me believe that everything will be all right.
And then, in the next moment, it breaks me into a thousand pieces.
I hate how it knows that I’m easy to please.
It seems to ignore that I’m just a sensitive kid.
Why is it so embarrassing for being one?
I can see people telling me to grow up.
I just wanna be loved.

And when I talk about loving
people these days take it as a game.
What do you mean you need to have a title to play?
Falling in love is easy, to continue loving is hard.
Stop calling out people to have a soft heart.
Also, when I finally leave them behind,
they say that I don’t have a heart?
How about you show me first that I’m also needed? Just like I showed you that you are.

Just admit that the bond you directed was never ours.

And now, when my smile doesn’t reach my eyes,
when the little things don’t make my eyes shine.
What do you mean you wanna listen to all of the problems of mine.
Does this really seem like a joke to you?
Or am I the joke here?
No, I don’t wanna know.
when I know the reality will hit me right in the soul.
Anyways now, here I’m watching the real me dying,
no, I won’t stop this from happening this time.

Enough talking for the day,
I’ll just let my tears say what my face denies.