Ixlusions

Mumma-papa I’m not okay,

your daughter is not okay.

I’m so lonely.

I’m not saying that you guys are the reason

but you guys aren’t helping either. 

I always show you my fake smile and then wait for you both to notice that there’s something wrong with your daughter and I’m still waiting. 

Please get me out of this place,

a very cold, dark place,

very quite still so loud. 

Even if I’m a useless person, I’m still your daughter right?

I want you guys to know,

my soul needs you so bad right now.

You know?

I’m not an introvert, this is not a phase

I’m just scared and I get so anxious even with the thought of telling anyone about it.

But the question is,

that you guys aren’t anyone. 

You’re my parents, my home.

Then what’s stopping me to share this with you directly?

– Sanjana